Get to know Skeddio!

      Who is Skeddio? That's such a hard question to answer, I can't simply explain it in one short paragraph. I was an especially weird child that loved to stop at Harris Ranch to use the tiny toilet for little girls, and stay in any motel that might have a shower cap that I could take with me. I don't think there was any explanation for my obsession with the shower caps, I would just put them on to sit in front of the television to watch TV. I believed my Cabbage Patch dolls, Red and Gobo from Fraggle Rock, and My Little Ponies were alive. I even toted around a gummy rat forever believing that it was my pet, until my brother bit it's gummy little head off. I was also a 'bag lady' as in, I would put my jeans on, then shorts, and then a skirt and then a fluffy frilly slip because it was the prettiest and needed to be seen. My shirts were worn backwards, too. I also carried around plastic bags of My Little Ponies anywhere we went and kept them on choke chains so they couldn't run away.


      I was almost a month and a half over due when my mom finally had me, I blame this as my reason to being late for almost everything in my life. I'm also not a morning person, and never have been. Even as a child my mom would get up to get a drink in the middle of the night and find me curled up in a recliner watching infomercials at two in the morning. I loved infomercials, and pretty much had them memorized word for word, especially anything Ron Popeil was selling. I was late to school constantly.

      I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks and have since I was about thirteen. I've only had two land me in the hospital, but have had countless attacks that leave me spinning and certain I am dying. I'd like to thank my mom for putting up with these as she is three hours ahead of me, in Georgia, and though I am a fully grown adult, I still call her in the middle of the night to be talked down. I've recently been less able to control them and talk myself down and finally asked a doctor for help, and for now, I am on 10mg of Lexapro a day to help keep my lows at a minimum. I do have Buspar for emergencies when I just can't get a hold of myself before a massive anxiety attack seeps in. I have a pretty crappy stomach, and have to take Ranitidine twice daily in an attempt to keep my stomach issues manageable.

      Music is one of my favorite things to pass time, as well as video games. I've been playing games online since the days of Ultima Online and Everquest and I've never stopped. My mother once made the mistake of handing me a Phantom of the Opera cassette tape and a walkman for a road trip when I was young. She realized her mistake the second I went from dead silent just listening to attempting to belt out the high notes of the song.

       I'm still a weird girl, now I'm just grown up, I'm down to earth, I have my moments of freak out, and all out, I believe I have a heart of gold. I care way more for people than I should. I cried my eyes out when I watched 'The Green Mile' when the guard stepped on the mouse and killed him, and then spent the rest of the movie asking my fiance if he was going to die, and hoping he would die. I apologize to dead animals that have been hit and killed by other cars when I'm driving. When I'm sick I still curl up under a blanket and watch 'The Little Mermaid,' just like I did as a little girl. Though I'm sure my mother is glad she doesn't have to put up with me calling her from the couch to rewind my VHS for the seventh time just so I could watch the movie an eighth time in a row.

      I live in northern Nevada with my fiance and our three cats, Moose, Milo and Tonks. We also have a female guppy named Eleanor who we've had since she was small enough to fit under my fingernail. I've been with my fiance for over five years. We actually work for the same gas station, but we just work different shifts. I just started there, so we're trying to figure out how we're going to spend time together since he works graveyard.


      Like I said before there's many things that make me who I am today. There's so many more things than I've listed here, but over time I'm sure we'll touch on those as my blogging journey continues. Until then.. thanks for reading!