Saturday, August 27, 2016

LIFE : The struggle is real...



          Stress ... the struggle is real.  I understand that my problems compared to other people's issues they're dealing with make mine insignificant, but that doesn't mean they're not a big deal to me.  

     Lately I've been beating my brain with issues that I keep facing, from my job, to my life, to everything else that is probably a non-issue, but my head is turning into a problem.  Currently my job is the biggest issue in my life.  Yes, the economy is bad, and I should be thankful to have a job, and especially in this tiny town.  I am.  Though, only to a certain degree.   I work a chaotic schedule, which has me changing my sleep patterns twice a week.  Being on the anti-depressants and anti-anxiety med, this does not help, because it is throwing my body into confusion.  I notice I'm back to where I just easily cry again, over the smallest things, and this in itself, actually makes me cry when I think about it.  I have talked to my boss, because when I was going to start this schedule, she told me to let her know if I started to burn out.  I let her know a month ago, and she has done nothing.  Made no effort in changing anything except taking away three of my days and leaving me on the two graveyard shifts.  Which does not fix the flip flop sleep schedule I told her I was struggling with.  Why?  Because I would have to go find a second job to make up the three days I would lose.. see the problem?  I'm tired of watching certain people get special treatment.