Stress ... the struggle is real. I understand that my problems compared to other people's issues they're dealing with make mine insignificant, but that doesn't mean they're not a big deal to me.
Lately I've been beating my brain with issues that I keep facing, from my job, to my life, to everything else that is probably a non-issue, but my head is turning into a problem. Currently my job is the biggest issue in my life. Yes, the economy is bad, and I should be thankful to have a job, and especially in this tiny town. I am. Though, only to a certain degree. I work a chaotic schedule, which has me changing my sleep patterns twice a week. Being on the anti-depressants and anti-anxiety med, this does not help, because it is throwing my body into confusion. I notice I'm back to where I just easily cry again, over the smallest things, and this in itself, actually makes me cry when I think about it. I have talked to my boss, because when I was going to start this schedule, she told me to let her know if I started to burn out. I let her know a month ago, and she has done nothing. Made no effort in changing anything except taking away three of my days and leaving me on the two graveyard shifts. Which does not fix the flip flop sleep schedule I told her I was struggling with. Why? Because I would have to go find a second job to make up the three days I would lose.. see the problem? I'm tired of watching certain people get special treatment.
My fiance came home this morning, and had actually spoken with our boss about my schedule and the resulting conversation had him so pissed off that he actually came home and told me to quit, and he would pay our car insurance every month. Now if you stop to realize, my fiance is the one who told me to come work there. He loves his job, and wanted me to work for a company that was good, and for a boss that cared about her employees. So yeah, I'd say it's pretty bad. I work 38+ hours a week, and on my information sheet, I am considered 'part time' and have not been offered health insurance. What the hell?
The other hard part of my schedule? Nothing lines up for me and my fiance, and honestly, I really feel like our relationship is struggling because of this. He works graveyard five nights a week, and his two nights off, I work graveyard. So we really see each other in passing. It is awful.
Hopefully something good is going to come along soon! I need out of these shenanigans!
Lately I've been beating my brain with issues that I keep facing, from my job, to my life, to everything else that is probably a non-issue, but my head is turning into a problem. Currently my job is the biggest issue in my life. Yes, the economy is bad, and I should be thankful to have a job, and especially in this tiny town. I am. Though, only to a certain degree. I work a chaotic schedule, which has me changing my sleep patterns twice a week. Being on the anti-depressants and anti-anxiety med, this does not help, because it is throwing my body into confusion. I notice I'm back to where I just easily cry again, over the smallest things, and this in itself, actually makes me cry when I think about it. I have talked to my boss, because when I was going to start this schedule, she told me to let her know if I started to burn out. I let her know a month ago, and she has done nothing. Made no effort in changing anything except taking away three of my days and leaving me on the two graveyard shifts. Which does not fix the flip flop sleep schedule I told her I was struggling with. Why? Because I would have to go find a second job to make up the three days I would lose.. see the problem? I'm tired of watching certain people get special treatment.
My fiance came home this morning, and had actually spoken with our boss about my schedule and the resulting conversation had him so pissed off that he actually came home and told me to quit, and he would pay our car insurance every month. Now if you stop to realize, my fiance is the one who told me to come work there. He loves his job, and wanted me to work for a company that was good, and for a boss that cared about her employees. So yeah, I'd say it's pretty bad. I work 38+ hours a week, and on my information sheet, I am considered 'part time' and have not been offered health insurance. What the hell?
The other hard part of my schedule? Nothing lines up for me and my fiance, and honestly, I really feel like our relationship is struggling because of this. He works graveyard five nights a week, and his two nights off, I work graveyard. So we really see each other in passing. It is awful.
Hopefully something good is going to come along soon! I need out of these shenanigans!
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